hmmmmmmm going to end of 2008 le.. in less than 12 hours, we'll be welcoming in 2009. but totally no feeling de lorx.. like nth special.. and here's a summary of year 2008 (for me).

Dates i'll nv forget.

1st Jan 2008: Happiest day of my life. (for now)

14 Feb 2008: Sweetest day of my life.(for now)

17 March 2008: Off to conquer Cactus Resort Sanya

24 March 2008: First body massage experience >.<

16 April 2008: First experiece with Sanya's BEAUTIFUL beach =D

12 May 2008: First clubbing experience in my whole life.

12 June 2008: Family came Sanya to visit =D

18 June 2008: The start of my month-long illness T.T

1st August 2008: Home sweet home~!!!! =)

20 September 2008: First clubbing experience in Singapore. ^.^

24 November 2008: Got my driving license!!!! =D

25 December 2008: The truth

29 December 2008: Limited Beetle the Bard arrived!!!!! HAHAHA *loves*



so many things happen lo.. 2008 ar.. i tell u... is the year i cried the most. but it is also the year i learn the most. and laughed the most. in 2008, i noe who are my true frens. who's going to stay by me for life and who are not.

but 2008 sucks... cos of the projects. >.< they suck sooooo much, my xmas and new year are ruined! *pouts*

2008 is also the year.. where i bought the most books!! hahahahahaah over 30 books man.... 27 titles from J.D. Robb. *yes, i'm a fan* totally in love with Eve Dallas and Roarke. *drools*

2008 is also the year where i started taking my life seriously. still deciding between further studies or working. leaning more towards further studies though. but should circumstances give me no choice, i might go for work. alr thot abt wat industry to go into. Attractions! =)

i have also gotten fat in 2008. =( cant let that happen. need to slim down!!!! also starting to care more for my looks. went for pedicure and manicure this year. *i love my nails~=3* also put on make-up once in a while. =x

shopped and spent the most in 2008 too~ aw shucks. bought like mp3, handphone, laptop, DS lite. half of it were from my own pockets. *proud of myself* learning to be more independent and to not spend too much of my parents' money. =3 working part-time to earn some extra pocket money. haha oh oh. i even signed up for a facial package with van! *excitement*

aiya.. in a sense, in 2008, tried alot of new things lo. LOL so yea.. hope 2009 will bring me beta things and nicer surprises ba. =) Happy new year, everyone!!!

sometimes, i dun get why i bother so much. so damn tired.. with all the projects and stuff.. and i still have the energy to see whether my frens are doing ok anot. i mus be crazy. but den again, juz cos i dun talk to some frens anymore, doesnt mean i wun care ba. as long as they're happy with their lives, i feel happy for them. frens can dun meet, dun talk. they juz exist in your life. i'm so dumb lo..





ppl tell me to give up. even cousins tell me it's not worth it. but... it's juz dat.. i tried letting go. i really did try. but my heart juz wun listen. and i thot to myself.. if i can wait one yr, why not wait for another. i'm not in a hurry or anything. i've got all the time in the world. even if it meant being alone, i oso dun mind ba. life's not always abt being with someone u love. we might not be tgt now, but that doesnt mean i should wallow in self-pity and not do wat i'm supposed to do. might as well get on with my life. i believe wat's mine will eventually be mine. i've had enough of begging for a little care. give me wat i deserve. and i will definitely make it worth your while..

in the end, i still decide to wait. no matter how much i wan to let go, i simply cant. cos in my heart, i noe he's the one. this time, i wun ask him to stay. i'm gonna wait for him to tell me to stay. show me you truly care.



all bitterness are worth it. as long as the results are sweet. i love you

it hurts.. i dunno why but it hurts alot

xmas.. alot of memories.. good ones.. den as i sat dere chatting with my frens, i thot to myself. is it really worth it? is he really worth my tears? i have a long way to go.. and i shouldnt let someone who has left to hold me back from wat i'm supposed to do. it's juz dat, when he left, he took a part of me. and now, it feels like life is juz moving by slowly. i'm tired but i have only myself. *van might argue that i still have her. love you, hubby. muacks* when i want to share my thots, there's only air. it doesnt feel real but it is real. uttering rubbish at this ungodly hour is really not my style.

i tell myself, i'll juz allow myself one more nite to rmb. to rmb him, to rmb the times we had. den it's time to move on. cos he dun love me lyk before and i noe my feelings for him has changed. wat used to be hope has turned into resignation. wat used to be passion has turned into numbness. sounds so emo rite.. i AM emo.. zzzz hate myself for being so weak.

give me one more nite. to cry, to love, to give everything i have. tml, i will move on. i will...





i've decided.. i wanna be a mom before the age of 25. i dun care i'm married anot. i'm ok with having a kid before marriage. i juz wan a kid. i dun even mind being a single mom.....







1 or 2 years later, i WILL leave sg.. and i might not come back..

bit by bit, second after second, i realised how fucked up spa can be. urgh

i finally finished watching 1 Litre of Tears. van said i will cry but... i didnt. i managed to control my tears. lol but it's seriously touching. half of the episodes are so touching, i had tears gathering in my eyes. i esp liked that scene where Ako was scolding Hiroki. i really want to cry.

so yea. love it~!

i really really REALLY need to start working on my projects...




GYM with darling hua hua later~ gonna train.



been watching wrestling for the past few days. jeff hardy rox~ john cena super rox~! if asked wat type of guy i like, john cena's THE ONE. HAHAHHAHAHA i wan my bf to have a body like john cena~ mayb not that muscular but strong. yea i wan strong guys~ =D











我很努力地掩饰我的心痛，我很努力地放开你的手
可是为什么我还是无法忘记我们的过去
承诺到哪去了？一起说好的幸福呢？
难道我们的爱这么经不起考验吗？
宝贝我好想你，你最近还好吗？

ever wondered wat happens when a person gets too stressed? i have pictures to show u~







during an "intensive" group project meeting..........

"urgh! wat to do?!?!?!"

muahahahhahahahahaha i finally placed an order on the Twilight series~ =D

ppl say, in order for ppl to love you, you must first love yourself. i guess it's true ba.

i love him enough to let him go. but i dun love myself enough to get myself out of this misery.

for once, i juz wan to be loved. it's just dat simple. either he turns around to accept me again, or someone comes along and take me away.

i have this knot in my heart. someone come untangle it.. cos it hurts..

i'm trying my best to move on. but whenever i see him name, i juz cant find it in me to move on. is this true love or stupidity?