the day i walked away, i swore that i wont look back. but.... i just dont listen, do i? i'm supposed to move on but to tell the truth, i havent. how do i let go off a on-again-off-again 3 years relationship? i really dont know how. every once in a while, i would wonder how you are doing. but you wanted all or nothing. i cant give you all and you forced me to take nothing. i know i'm the one who started it all.. and that i'm also the one who ended it. after 3 months, i still think about us. i did meet a new guy but i am too afraid to commit. he's almost like you.. wanting me to commit, to make promises but never really let me know what am i to him. and cowardly me escaped. cause i just cant stand another you in my life.

life has been boring. so i'm really really looking forward to buying my new babies so i can have something concrete to do. haha currently, i'm just passing my time playing games in Facebook (farmtown, my zoo, restaurant city, etc) and Maplestory. looking forward to start school but i know myself enough to know that when school starts, i'm going to look forward to holidays. HAHA

J.D. Robb's latest title is out in paperback! cant wait to get my hands on it. and there's this new book from Nora Roberts: Bed of Roses that's coming out in oct~ happy~~~ in the past, people called me a bookworm. i'm still a bookworm but please add the title "book collector" to my name as well~ hahaha seriously bought a lot of books in this year. now i dont have space in my bookshelf to accomodate the books. boos

there's been a lot of happy things going on in my life! guinea pigs, books, and now i get to DECORATE MY ROOM~ cause my dad wanted to change the lights for our house so he decided to REPAINT the whole house!!! and my brother and i get to choose what colors we want for our rooms!!! happiness~~~ ahahhaa i'm so making use of this golden opportunity to revamp my room. i cant decide what color i want for my room. is light green good or pale orange? i'm so excited! will post a picture of my new lamp when it arrives!!! XD

and after this post, i've realised even without you, i still can be happy. =) i hope you're happy as well and that one day we can be friends again. i love you